Overtly Vague

It's so interesting to see people go back and forth, having indirect dispute, through the wonders of the modern era. I've been witness to this in a few instances lately, between Tara & Xavier, as well as Perry & Eric. It's childish, sure, but we ALL do it at one point or another, given the convenience of text on a computer to take a jab at someone. Why not partake, it's readily available, it's our new basic mode of comfortable communication, and it renders fewer consequences than a proper, face-to-face resolution.

Not that we ever resolve anything. Man, my place of employment is a royal test of my love of humanity. It births a lack thereof. People are SO sensitive. I remember recognizing myself as immature.. and still do when the need arises. But people who are 25, even 36 years old, who can't handle the basics of life just really irritate me on a deep level. I have no patience anymore for apathy. The only way to uplift the world and our instinctual morale is to rise above the despair and turmoil around you and simply BE the positivity and productivity in life. There's no effort or much of any energy required, just nurture those around you and the motherfucking planet the best to your ability.

The idea of ego is just bizarre to me. Saul has said, "egos should be illegal, mine just don't know how to act." Very true, yet way off base. Is it so difficult to compromise? Is it a chore to step outside of our comfort zones and enlist on a journey, or even an attempt at something we may not enjoy? Hell, beyond that... I don't know. I'm so disgusted with Perry Farrell at the moment, and perhaps even Eric Avery as well, since everything is a two way street, no doubt. We have few things in life that really reach in and bring out our vitality and all that we offer to share with the world, in whatever medium or by whatever means that may entail for us individually. But see, when two behemoths of power and genius, and perhaps ego, collide--there's just little room for flexibility. We've seen this all through the ages with brilliance or any sort of conviction. Some people are very hard to work with, or even get along with, based on their peculiar personalities. Hell, I may even be one. And my intentions go misconstrued so often. So maybe that's it, really.

Though simply getting past these things should seem easier, though historical figures and well-loved artists inform us otherwise. When you build a legacy in life, nurture it best you can. And I'm not seeing this in Jane's Addiction 2010. 2009, I couldn't have been happier with. What an unbelievable privilege to see true, vibrant performance of meaningful creation. But now we're to the point of new creation, further stepping forward in collective energy, and they fail once more. Why why why... dammit. This only alerts me of my own failures and lack of energy and conviction, though it appears to me that these particular people have more incentive and better means of portraying their intention than some of us. I wish so strongly for things that can't always be. Don't we all...

Like I said, we all want convenience sure enough.